reconciliation

... cities amaze in their ability to disregard, displace and disrupt ... my first weeks in Seoul confirm this statement ... at the moment i am an onlooker more than a resident ... persist, endure, follow & watch ... 

... i search for a form of reconciliation ecology ... inventing, establishing and maintaining a new habitat designed for a diversity of living, working and playing ... a place which possesses anima meaning breath, spirit and soul  ... at first, in the leaving, i imagined a radical break ... on arrival have learned to accept a certain amount of conservation of the past needs preservation ... perhaps even restoration ... the challenge is to generate a creative coexistence between the old and new territories ... to comprehend the mysteries of place a cultivation of morals & purpose are required ... i consciously accept the self-organizing complexity of this odyssey ... 

... i once dreamed of a place for a vibrant exchange of active creation and researching ingenuity ... my formative experiences in Wroclaw & Vienna helped  grow roots in my beloved prairie ... the dream was transformed in a beautiful way yet in time a restless disquiet emerged ... even discontent & disconnect ... rootlessly committed to this place accompanied with my dearest companion i wander the communities ... 

... come across a mirror ... an unwanted mirror cast away as garbage ... a mirror strong, sturdy ... pick it up and carry it to what is now home ... a portal? A symbol.? Nonsense? ... 

... best now to simply put my ear to the ground and let the vibration rise slowly ... carefully ... living with ...  respond graciously ... become worthy of ... love ... in this land of reconciliation ... 

... search relentlessly a singing ness & dancing ness ... the movement will find the way of be(long)ing ...

::Note:: ... written after a most exhausting battle on the streets and offices of Seoul ...