if . . .

... you watch the video a second time ... it is on endless loop ... abruptly you realize the opponent you had faced had not been a man ... you had that suspicion during the battle ... and an exchange had occurred ... parts of each of you were transferred ... it had been surprisingly easy to give yourself over ... it happened so fast ... without warning ...  ... you were adept at hiding from others ... a bold pivot had ended the struggle ... that was then the transformation had occurred ... the blood merged ...  you grabbed ... silence ...   my god you recognized the woman ... the women in the video was your sister ... your sister had  died a decade ago ... a blood disease ... after you sisters’ death your family had changed ... you ...   ... silence ... i had a vague notion of the dream being lost ... the dreamer was grasping the images hoping they wouldn’t vanish ...  unknown ... let me be clear ... i am only a scribe writing the d...

... a battle was about to ensue ... you needed to be patient to find a vein to feel the flow of life  ... to get time on your side and balance the space ... you took the next step plunging into deep mud ... it begins to snow ... someone was lurking ahead ... a lone wolf misfit or a hermit from antiquity who’d abandoned the world zigzags mysteriously ... the vagabond appears hurt blood oozing from a wound ... you feel a pain that hasn’t yet hit him ... you can’t accurately grasp the features of the face ... you need to discover what lies at the core ... something hidden ...  ... i stop writing overcome with nostalgia ... needing time to recover from the shock... the dramatic conversion about to occur is nothing more than traces of a memory induced by a sort of deviance akin to madness ... my burden is to write exactly what is spoken ... abandon etiquette ... my insights are no longer the product of reason ... the violence will be excised ... the episode may be written els...

... do you take any stock of your dreams ... do you make decisions based on your dreams ... are dreams crucially important ... do dreams trigger ... do they make things clear ...can dreams be your friend ...do you ever remember your dreams ... can you ever forget ... can you erase dreams ... do you think about anything else other than your dreams ...  ... i’m reminded of a dream ... i don’t want to restore the dream even if I could ... it would lead to despair ...  yet it was there ... it was there with all its obstacles ... it was a crazy dream ... an unfulfilled dream ... well it had been partially  realized ... like a dream made visible through a fogged up window and you can see your own reflection though not out the window ...  ... you see a physical reflection of yourself in a fog ... walking through this long tunnel in an art gallery ... you’ve entered the back and are walking the wrong way ... at least the opposite of the intended way ... you’re a ...

You play in dreams Blissfully free You shout You work towards dreams They change You age You search new dreams They stop You fail You lose most dreams Feel empty You wonder ... You wish all dreams Would reconcile You laugh You know some dreams Are foolish You cry You watch the dreams Pass by You remember You expand one dream It contracts You resign ... You forget other dreams Too late You reason You memorize last dreams Repeat endlessly You haunt You dream the dreams To death You finalize You dreamed a dream To wake You sigh ::Note::  ... you dreamt... not a dream ...