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Sask. native magazine launched to counter 'negative' press (2006) Indian Cultural Magazine Makes It's Debut (1970) - See: Terms :: note :: ... one (of many) larger questions - who reads what is written ...

"There are three portions or persons of Eros that have been classically differentiated: himeros or physical desire for the immediately present to be grasped in the heat of the moment; anteros or answering love; and pothos, the longing toward the unattainable, the ungraspable, the incomprehensible, that idealization which is attendant upon all love and which is always beyond capture. If himeros is the material and physical desire of eros, and anteros the relational mutuality and exchange, pothos is love's spiritual portion." ( The 3 Persons of Eros ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... towards a union of the three ...

- See: Terms :: note :: ... with a great act of the will have practiced resistance ...

"But they also wake you up, sharpening your perceptions, making you alert to composition and contradiction, to their spatial anomalies. Again, like characters, they are filled with deception. You might think of them as snares or traps. One glimpses things hidden just under the surface, traces of things buried under the skin." ( Is anyone there? ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... there is an incredible connection between the arts which is rarely explored ...

Set in India against the backdrop of Mahatma Gandhi's rise to power, Lotus follows the life of a young girl Chulia, a child-bride, who is abandoned at a widow's ashram. There she is forced to live out a life of penitence until death. Unwilling to accept her fate, Chulia becomes a catalyst for change in the lives of the widows. When her friend and confident, the beautiful Chendra falls in love with a young, upper class Gandhian idealist, the forbidden love boldly defies Hindu tradition and threatens to undermine the delicate balance of power within the social caste system of India. Lotus offers an examination of the lives of widows and Indian culture in colonial India but is ultimately a lyrical story of love, faith and redemption. The flower Lotus is symbolic of spiritual attainment and the flowering of human potential. We invite you to this poetic drama full of the colour, music and dance of traditional India. The sun and the moon will take you on a complex journey into the t...

" Guild stressed that the white poppy was in no way intended as an insult to those who died in the First World War but that it was a 'pledge to peace that war must not happen again'." - See: Image :: note :: ... am so tired of war ... when will leaders listen to the people ... please stop sending our children on missions of killing ... why I can't wear a poppy ... a white poppy can be a salvation ...

- See: Theater :: note :: ... thanks to a wonderful warm audience the evening proved to be a deep & rich honouring of the power of collaboration ... Henry, Susan and Harold have graced this world with imaginative landscapes of the human condition bringing tears of laughter, joy, melancholy & meditations on memory ... the jazz of Ray touched the essential musicality of the wordspace creating an expansive breadth and emotional reverie ... special thanks to the invisible behind scene workers ... without their care much of what happened could not have been ... to all present many blessings ...

- See: Image

"What do we know about the human desire?" ( René Girard | The mimetic desire ) - See: Quote :: note :: ... ideas on violence and religion ... Girard, a thinker on literature, myth and prophacy ... our desires are not original they are mimetic ... language is learned from imitation ... in order to develop spirit you need to catch fire from someone ... spirit is ignited by spirit ... desires are borrowed from others ... the lie of romanticism/the truth of the novel ... most imitation is spontaneous ... culture is organized around sacrifice ... violence against one ... all mythology discloses and disguises a process of scapegoating ... the killing of the substitute victim creates peace ... tragedy is recounting a myth ... to be a real sacrifice without death ... purification of passions ... sacrifice replaced with the telling of sacrifice ...

There, just as reflections appear in a pond, So all the world's sundry phenomena present the paradox of being nothing and yet have presence; They are like phantoms, a mirage, the moons reflection in the water; This is called "devoid of any reality" understand this as a certainty. ( The Story of Wildwood Delights from A Visionary Journey by Longchenpa trans. by Herbert Guenther ) - See: Quote :: note :: ... reflections ... mysteries of living ... a dance in light signifying nothing ... name whispering signifying nothing ... a life lived signifying nothing ...

- See: Images :: note :: ... days before leaving for Australia a look over the river ... the sky opens to her dreams ... wish you wellness & love ...

What is released in the curl of decay is the vein through which we feel a gentleness of archaic wisdom flowing into the earth. And pebbles surround it there watching breathlessly the shrivelling in on ourselves as wrinkles of torn time. - See: Poetry :: note :: ... thanks to Chris @ Parking Lot for his What is held ... a master at cultivating open spaces ... inspiring the release of inner spaces & creating expansive expression ...

""With Oriana Fallaci, we lose a journalist of global fame, an author of great success, a passionate protagonist of lively cultural battles,' declared Italian President Giorgio Napolitano on Friday." ( cbc.ca | Provocative Italian journalist Oriana Fallaci dies ) - See: Memorium :: note :: ... had always admired her passion ... her book Letter to An Unborn Child was an unforgettable read ... labelled a prophet of decline she never shied from controversy and lived in courage ... yes "May her memory be eternal" ...

"Time passes; it could be a few days or a millennium. Someone digs them up and holds their skull in hand and wonders: what was the dig like then? There is nothing wrong with the newer future. Those who make it work for them will be powerful and rich. But that older future seems to have more room in it for those quiet, dry-eyed men. And I know I want, someday, to join their group as it stands frowning around a steaming car engine, each trying to figure out what went wrong." ( FTrain.com | Men standing around broken machines ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... the long now ... Paul Ford was one of the first i read in posted writings ... there is a charm, eloquence & wry humour ... & a depth of human spirit ... we need that in all times ...

... dipping into the blue vexing learning ... seeking , attempting, failing, reflecting, succeeding, practice ... do i have the courage to unlearn to teach ... & without love what do you have ...

"By dividing the interpretation of an art work into several distinct "levels" it becomes possible to recognize a fundamental distinction between digital and non-digital art works, as well as realize the underlying ideology is based upon the illusion of infinite resources; as such it replicates the underlying ideology of capitalism itself -- that there is an infinite amount of wealth that can be extracted from a finite resource. It is an illusion that emerges in fantasies that digital technology ends scarcity by aspiring to the condition of information. The digital presents the illusion of a self-productive domain, infinite, capable of creating value without expenditure, unlike the reality of limited resources, time, expense, etc. that otherwise govern all forms of value and production." "Digital forms also exhibit what could be called the "aura of information" -- the separation of the meaning present in a work from the physical representation of that ...

"The eye of the artist concentrates on his pencil, the pencil moves - and the line dreams." ( apparently spoken by Paul Klee found in the pre-text of David Zinder's Body Voice Imagination: A Training for the Actor ) - See: Education :: note :: ... oh the delicate balance of work & play, control & release, freedom & discipline, trust & trust ... i have so much to learn while making so many mistakes ... am grateful my students & colleagues are so forgiving ...

"If I remember the sunflower forest it is because from its hidden reaches man arose. The green world is his sacred center. In moments of sanity he must still seek refuge there." - Loren Eiseley ( the sunflower forest ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... seeking refuge & sanity standing on the bank of the Saskatchewan seeing over the river at twilight ...

"informal learning is: * deep and pervasive (representing over 80% of learning that occurs in organisations) * uncontrolled (most is through colleagues and self discovery - without the training department in sight) * powerful (this is the driving force of the real learning culture of the organisation, influence this and you will radically change the way your organisation learns)" ( mousemusings | informal learning ) - See: Education :: note :: ... thanks to my students & colleagues ...

"Along time ago in China there were cities with high walls surrounding them, with huge, magnificent gates. The gates weren't just doors for letting people in or out but had greater significance. People believed the city's soul resided in the gates. Or at least that it should reside there. It's like in Europe in the Middle Ages when people felt a city's heart lay in its cathedral and central square. Which is why even today in China there a lots of wonderful gates still standing. Do you know how the Chinese built these gates?" "I have no idea," Sumire answered. "People would take carts out to old battlefields and gather the bleached bones that were buried there or that lay scattered about. China's a pretty ancient country - lots of old battle grounds - so they never had to search far. At the entrance to the city they'd construct a huge gate and seal the bones inside. They hoped that by commemorating them this way the dead soldiers would c...

"Everyone stands alone at the heart of the world pierced by a ray of sunlight, and suddenly it is evening." ( Salvatore Quasimodo ) - See: Poetry :: note :: ... an overwhelming beginning overflowing with gratitude and appreciation ... practice the art of the beginner ... to all cry & reach across infinite space into the heart's deepest well where the moonlight resides guiding ... bless you ...

"There are four other reasons why homework would be banned at my house." ( Parking Lot |A call for the great Canadian homework ban ) - See: Education :: note :: ... unschooling from within ...

"... If we didn't enjoy the war on terror, it would collapse." ( I cite | Enjoying Terror ) "'The first idea was 'OK, we don't go,' because it's impossible to put the rare instruments in the baggage [hold],'concertmaster and soloist Alessandro Tampieri told CBC News." ( cbc.ca | arts&entertainment | Baroque concert saved by loaned instruments ) - See: Politics :: note :: ... yes ... the power heirarchy has too much joy ...

"In earlier times, festivals like Lincoln Center's existed to display what artists had created in the normal course of business. Theater and dance troupes would come from all over, bringing the same works they played for their audiences at home. Nowadays, festivals are everywhere, a globalized phenomenon like mass marketing, and pieces that have no effective existence in their home countries are manufactured for the sole purpose of migrating from festival to festival." ( Village Voice | Theater |Bits of Pieces Crossbreeding cultures is fine, but what if nothing grows out of it? | Michael Feingold ) - See: Theater :: note :: ... reading & experiencing this phenomena more and more which continues to confirm the marketing of theater whatever scale from small fringe to international spectacular ... quality sacrificed for marketing ...

"... [power] lies in the fact that [repetitive musics] cause the forgetting of what is being repeated and they make for a nonforgetting of time as a beat in place. Tradition is that which concerns time, not content. Whereas what the West wants from autonomy, invention, novelty, self-determination is the opposite - to forget time and to preserve, acquire and accumulate contents. To turn them into what we call history, and to think that it progresses because it accumulates. On the contrary, in the case of popular traditions ... nothing is accumulated, that is, the narratives must be repeated all the time because they are forgotten all the time. But what does not get forgotten is the temporal beat that does not stop sending the narratives to oblivion. " ( Just Gaming . Lyotard . ) - See: Image :: note :: ... the whole dada movement about spontaneity in process, work & performance lives & is continually documented ... it is a practice of devising and a response to the...

"Art can be a career, but it is also a way of life. What does that mean? What is the place of art in life? What does the practice of art mean to the artist's inner life, and what is the place of one's inner life in art that is made for others to see? This is something I want to think more about, and if possible hear about from you." ( Two Artists Talking ( CA & JM ) | Saturday night: art comes from many places ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... dialogue project ... seems (listening in as it begins) a bit formal/forced ... a few posts later warmer ...

- See: Image :: note :: ... month ends, a season passes & the flowers cycle towards memory ...

"... it is quite obvious that our instincts actually work against our instincts, so that, so to say, our anti-instincts act instead of, or even as, our instincts ..." ( Kaddish for a child not Born - Imre Kertesz ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... the paradox is when the anti-instinct becomes an instinct ...

"strip language of emotion, end up with operate" ( One Line Poems by Zoketsu Norman Fische | The Everydaty Zen Foundation ) - See: Poetry :: note :: ...huge attraction to brevity whether one-lines, aphorisms, short story, novelette, playlet, txt message ...

"strip language of emotion, end up with operate" ( One Line Poems by Zoketsu Norman Fische | The Everydaty Zen Foundation ) - See: Poetry :: note :: ...huge attraction to brevity whether one-lines, aphorisms, short story, novelette, playlet, txt message ...

The new mythos cannot emerge from the art of today's popular culture, in which the hero saves the day. Art as entertainment only drives us deeper into denial. Art as a cathartic experience is different. "The Greek tragic plays, based on the sacred stories of the gods, provide examples of such catharsis, or "purification." The art we need is an art that can confront us with the tragic results of our actions and embolden us to accept our culpability, while at the same time offering hope that we might salvage what is left of the Earth and our humanity. Is it possible to create new sacred stories, built on the familiar, that will restore both reverence and hope?" ( Discourse & Dissent | Telling Stories: The Restorative Power of Myth Wilson by Kelpie Wilson ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... logos & mythos working hand in hand ...

"What is bare life? This second question underscores the sheer vulnerability and complete exposure of being. Bare life deals with that part of our existence from which no measure of security will ever protect us. But as in sexuality, absolute exposure is intricately connected with infinite pleasure. There is an apocalyptic and obviously political dimension to bare life (brought out by torture and the concentration camp). There is, however, also a lyrical or even ecstatic dimension to it - a freedom for new and unexpected possibilities (in human relations as well as in our relationship to nature or, more generally, the world in which we live). Here and there, art dissolves the radical separation between painful subjection and joyous liberation. But what does that mean for its audiences?" ( Documenta 12 leitmotifs ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... another discussion at empyre ...

"The reason for my interest is simple: As a graduate student in the 1990s I studied ancient Greek epic and wrote my dissertation on Homer's Odysseys . It wasn't the idea that a poet could memorize and retell the thousands of lines comprising the story of the wandering Odysseus and his wily wife that got my attention (though I found it a remarkable skill). Rather, it was the idea that the poet sculpted the story in different ways for each telling and each audience. That there were literally thousands of Odysseys circulating the ancient world provoked my curiosity." ( Dene Grigar | dene@mail.eaze.net / empyre@lists.cofa.unsw.edu.au ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... summer list reading ... a whole discussion on rhapsodic, ephemeral, multimedia narrative/story telling (liquid narrative) ... the nomadic town ... my house ... when ghosts will die ... and finally to my original roots the living theater ...

You are someone's son . Reveal unto me your secret oh ancestors and of course know I don't see eye to eye and at the same time cannot deny your existence as my base and source between me and them allies/enemies finding freedom to make my own way... (apologies to Grotowski: Tu es le fils de quel in Drama Review: TDR, Vol 31 No. 2 Autumn 1987/ link requires authorization) - See: Terms :: note :: ...on turning 53...

Opera company delivers impressive performance Shannon Boklaschuk, The StarPhoenix Published: Monday, July 17, 2006 Drama, romance, comedy -- Don Giovanni has got it all. On Saturday night, Mozart's renowned opera was brilliantly brought to life by Saskatoon Opera, with each vocalist delivering a most impressive performance. The show, which clocked in at around three hours, drew heart-felt applause and a standing ovation from the crowd -- and the praise was certainly well-deserved. The production offered first-rate entertainment, and the opera company should be proud of the high standard it has achieved. It's wonderful Saskatonians can enjoy such high-quality musicianship in their own backyard, and artistic director Barbara Montalbetti deserves kudos for her work. If you're not familiar with Don Giovanni, Mozart's opera is fast-paced and dramatic. It kicks off with a scene in which Don Giovanni (played by Matthew Leigh) attacks Donna Anna (Ileana Montalbetti), who manag...

Exploring his bad side Famous Mozart opera gives young baritone delightful challenge Joanne Paulson, The StarPhoenix Published: Wednesday, July 12, 2006 Matthew Leigh and Ileana Montalbetti star in Saskatoon Opera's production of Don Giovanni Photograph by : Richard Marjan, The StarPhoenix Don Giovanni is a very, very bad boy. He seduces women, kills men, lies through his teeth and generally behaves like an arrogant boor.He is also a lot of fun to play -- certainly for Matthew Leigh, who has taken on the title role for this year's Saskatoon Opera production. "I actually find Don Giovanni an easy character to understand," said Leigh (pronounced Lay) in a recent interview."He's simple, in a way. There are people who think he's a very complex character, but I disagree with that.He's very selfish, very spoiled, and I know many people who are like that; there's a side of me that's like that."Like many men, Leigh also admits he understands Giov...

Ileana performs Donna Anna in Don Giovanni & gets some newspaper coverage & excellent review ... for me the performance was spectacular ... an exciting, dynamic, rich voice filling the theater and entering the heart ... a powerful stage presence full of depth, confidence and nuanced feelings ... a performance centered in a strong emotional core that serves the art form with splendour ... a gifted artist to watch & enjoy but much more than that one of those rare talents that will push the art form into unique realms ... bravo ily ... - See: opera :: note :: ... may I be a proud father ...

"Only from our stories can we discover that our stories have come to an end, otherwise we would go on living as if there were still something for us to continue (our stories for example); that is, we would go on living in error." ( from Liquidation. Imre Kertész.27. ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... to write your story is live in a perpetual narration ... a constant awarness ...

"An Italian TV commentator declared that watching the tense match had caused great suffering: soffertissimo! At the ancient Circus Maximus, more than 150,000 people who watched the game on giant screens exploded with joy at the victory. "I don't believe it. It's a fairytale, it's just great to win after suffering so much. It's magnifico!" bayed 29-year-old Chiara." ( Explosion of Joy in Rome ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... the players also talked about suffering ...

"Pray, that you might awaken and not burn the world with that third eye - that eye which plays with history," she laughed." ( Raja Rao: Sacred Wordsmith ) - See: Memorium :: note :: ... the Hindu reports ( via ) the passing of Raja Rao ...

history, memory & forgiveness light traces the eternal rose while night falls to storms & the morning brings tear dew of flight open dreams to build heartlift places of solitude despite feverish aches & endless desires time to time the roselight passion holds reverie & the beauty of one folding into another stands still - See: Poetry

... breath held awaits the cascade of concentric zones as the continental shelf slopes towards the temple ... - See: Terms

... the first thing that has to go is any form of artistic expression that's dear to you. Art is unimportant next to life, and you have no choice. I had no hunger for it anymore, anyway. Creativity has much to do with experience, observation and imagination, and if any one of those key elements is missing, it doesn't work... ( fom Chronicles Volume One. Bob Dylan. 121 ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... summer reading ... an exploration of being an iconic popular performing artist ... chapter four the writing & recording of "Oh Mercy" ... read playing the described tracks ... the complexity of simplicity ... every painful decision ...

:: note :: ... i am not patriotic & worry about patriotism ... i honour the space of my inhabited territory and learn with others to love the place ... although part of a community i create great distance with some of the immediate neighbours & open spheres closely with those afar ... where are the borders & boundries ... they all dissolve with breath ... have always been taken with the sense that we breath each other in & out so many millions of times ... since there is no why ... there is the way ... the name is a question ... seek your given name & choose to give thanks to the given place ... - See: Terms

"Nicknamed "Dragon Lake," this body of water is formed by the Bratskove Reservoir, built along the Angara River in southern Siberia, near the city of Bratsk. This image was taken in winter, when the lake is frozen." ( via ) - See: Image :: note :: ... the earth is always art ... it is always our perspective ...

"'We erect our structures in our imaginations before we erect them in reality.' --Karl Marx " ( via ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... Urban Konsumterror ... we also erect reality to harness imagination ... we need more & more space/open structures ... deep dialogues with empty space which i am beginning to articulate in my drama classes as some sort of metaphoric territory called the ifsphere ...

Suffer the Children - Lost in Devotion - See: Artists :: note :: ... @the bassment ... a couple of students kyle & tristan ... powerful expression ..

"The nice thing about the future is that we can't yet remember it. The nice thing about the past is that we can make it up as we go along." ( YOU ARE BEING REMEMBERED |Utopia Suite ) "And despite recent history and on-going tragedies, many of us still hope ardently, some would say innocently, for civic solutions to our ills, still believing in the possibility of creating a Utopian society, with health and wealth for all (or at least a much greater sharing of these). Food, hope and shelter, clean water and air, and maybe even love." ( Into | Utopia Suite ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... utopia and movement ... Clive Holden , a canadian artist who needs more exposure (i think) ... found while listening to a favourite podcast Rabble Radio - Episode 20 ...

- See: Image :: note :: ... backyard heaven ... flower sensuality ... the petals curl around a heavy heart ... taken from my grandmothers front in the Crowsnest Pass they now reside in my mother's praire garden ... opening to the dreams & mists of purple valleys ...

"My advice would go something like this: forget everything school has taught you about what it means to learn. From now on you will grow and learn and acquire new skills and knowledge from the most unlikely places. Don't look at the people at the front of the room for the answers, look at the four people sitting around you and engage them in a deep conversation. The answer lies there. Or if not the answer, the next question, and it is finding the next question that is going to keep you going for the next 70 years." "And never forget those four people. You will see them again. This is because contrary to what school tells you about questions and answers, the truth is that the world is an oracle waiting to be consulted. You must take time to frame the good questions and then pose them to the world and then you must wait to see what result you have made with those questions." ( Parking Lot | Advice to graduates: cultivate your network learning abilities ) - See: T...

- See: Theater :: note :: Last night attended a fabulous performance by the Drama Club of the infamous murder mystery Clue. Congratulations to the cast and crew for an absolutely wonderful evening. Completely student driven from direction to poster the elite actresses, actors, backstage, light and sound artists brought a complex drawing room comedy, a cheeky, saucy French farce, a biting satire and brilliant parody of the detective form to joyous life. From standup to slapstick to looney tune anarchy the evening traced the history of comedy. Bravo!

"An intimate, evening-length performance of the hereditary compositions of the female court dancers and male dance-masters of South India. play draws inspiration from the salon performances that were given by devadasis in South India until the early part of the twentieth century, and therefore relies heavily on the subtle and nuanced use of the face, hands and Karnatak music. inDANCE's representations of devadasi repertoire are thus stylized abstractions that call attention to the language of desire, love and jouissance once spoken by devadasi women, and today silenced by their disappearance. Conceptualized within a modern aesthetic framework, play is an evening of never-before-performed antiquated repertoire that speaks to a universal audience." ( inDance Repertoire | play (2002 ) ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... a stunning evening of classical Indian Dance at the Broadway Theater (Saskatoon) ... honouring the powerful rich tradition with elegance, splendour and stength...

always by Oscar Pastior there's no such thing as the poem. there's always only this poem that happens to read you. but because in this poem see above you can say there's no such thing as the poem and there's always only this poem that happens to read you even the poem that you don't read can read you and there be no such thing as always only this poem here. both you and you read that and this. call both by name: they read you even if there's no such thing as you only here ( Translated by Rosmarie Waldrop ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... thanks to all the poetry news & reviews which flourish ... once difficult info can now be at your fingertips ...

"I believe only in the evidence of what stirs my marrow, not in the evidence of what addresses itself to my reason. I have found levels in the realm of the nerve." ( MANIFESTO IN A CLEAR LANGUAGE by Antonin Artaud ) - See: Terms

- See: Images :: note :: ...lots of time up the stairs, in the house and the booth ... students on stage ...

Quellnymphe 1 Originally uploaded by mitue . ... flickr test ...

"'I think you're born a shaman,' Gregory says. "The shaman goes down into the darkness for the tribe, to bring light and growth to the harvest. The difficulty in our culture is that, unlike the Native American culture and many others, it's not recognized and there's nobody to train you. So you're unconsciously a shaman for a long time, which often means you go down into the darkness and you don't know how to come back up."" ( Andre Gregory Sees the Light ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... met Andre in Poland during a "beehive" in the mid 70's & was delighted to see him still performing ... nice to know you once confronted a legend ...

"Those of us who revere him will continue to find ample reasons for our devotion. Perhaps too we can learn to listen to the silence amid the thunder and pay him another kind of tribute: to recall "the inspiration behind the inspiration" that first made it all real for us - to look back, and then beyond." ( openDemocracy | Bob Dylan's revolution in the head : As Dylan turns 65 ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... how can i let this moment pass ... no other popular artist has cast such a shadow ... in my early adolescence i surrendered to the "protest artist" & strove relentlessly to become the elusive trickster shaman he was ... his rolling thunder roared me into being ... his hard rain baptized ... every decade i would cast off all his recordings, books, images and films only to gather them all up again ... the cycle from vinal to tape to cd to dvd to mp3 ... yes five cycles and counting ... a chronicle of reinvention ... in hommage and devotion th...

Tom Moody - See: Artists :: note :: ... was once accused of using a "hypnotic" voice while teaching ... my lessons verged on propoganda it was said ... "you teach nothing" just brainwash us into all this bullshit of the imagination ... what was remarkable was how effective this rant was in enabling those leaders that felt threatened by anything other their status quo rational logic to discredit the work for them ...

"Peter brings a level of attention and presence to the stage that one rarely sees. He's really and truly there and he's actually doing whatever he's doing. I know this sounds sort of esoteric or unapproachable, but its not. I mean, when you're in theater school we talk about presence and attention, we talk about being "in the moment", we talk about the radical ideas of early experimental theater and then we move on into the real world." ( culturbot | Cleansing the Senses ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... my senses tingled reading that Peter Rose was performing again ...followed his work at a distance passing each other at various performace sites in the late 70's ... the reviews suggest both a rich narrative tale and an accurate moment of theater history ...

from Night Letter My dear, is it too late for peace, too late For men to gather at the wells to drink The sweet water; too late for fellowship And laughter at the forge; too late for us To say, "Let us be good to one another"? The lamps go singly out; the valley sleeps; I tend the last light shining on the farms And keep for you the thought of love alive, As scholars dungeoned in an ignorant age Tended the embers of the Trojan fire. Cities shall suffer siege and some shall fall, But man's not taken. What the deep heart means, Its message of the big, round, childish hand, Its wonder, its simple lonely cry, The bloodied envelope addressed to you, Is history, that wide and mortal pang. - See: Memorium :: note :: ... this was the first poet introduced to me via the internet ... above words seem like a perfect epitaph ... a wide & mortal pang in a simple lonely cry ... bye

- See: Images :: note :: ... Powwow at the school today ... joyful self affirmations ... danced & drummed with Wild Horse Drummers ...

. . . happiness is poverty own nothing not even your memories . . . (sweet words from the tower) - See: Terms :: note :: ... the conscious barrenness of death & futility countered by abundance raises affirmations towards the simple poverty of beauty . . .

"'On the heath Lear asks Gloucester: "How do you see the world?" And Gloucester, who is blind, answers: 'I see it feelingly.'" ( Chris Corrigan | Six observations about seeing ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... feelingly is so much about body- space - image ... feelingly is the capacity to be creating bodily presence in the spatial image ... oh well ... goodnight ...

the silver heart partially hidden amber the wide eyes barely holding gaze shining the sure voice vieled in longing bright electra holds the false ashes electra turned her face from the burning. - See: Poetry :: note :: ... we constantly speak to ourselves ... if only we'd listen ...

RADIANCE: An Experience of Light (1978 ) Through religion, philosophy, psychology, art, and architecture, RADIANCE presents light as a universal symbol of life. This film invites the viewer to see how images of light continue from ancient cultures through modern times, connecting the visions of people throughout the world. Natural images, unusual special effects, and poetic narration are woven together with musical selections to develop an evocative documentary on light, from the metaphysical to the physical Director: Dorothy Fadiman Producer: Michael Wiese Production Company: Fadiman Productions - See: Images :: note :: ... hmmm ... internet archive of moving images ... just a marker to note a shift listening to more&more podcasts ... watching more&more downloads ... hmmm ...

perfect pitch (notes for my mother) Since you were buried Your singers are scattered like dust. - Kuan P'an-pan (8th-9th century) * i write in my brother's house over christmas. he lives six blocks from the house our mother was born in. no ghosts     except ones i bring. * my mother sleeps in a room at the top of stairs. at night the house breathes night hear her breath. * houses on sunnyside old as my mother her mother her mother's mother. red brick      steeped in blood. * every time a truck rolls by the windows of my mother's house shake. windows of my brother's house shake. * someone down the street burns garbage. my mother watches her brother from the back step empty ashes from furnace. * the man next door rakes leaves between patches of snow. cigarette lingers on lip smell of smoke. * air in high park so damp my clothes crimp. my mother's grandmother drapes wet sweaters over radiators. perfume of wool * at the kitchen table in the dark i s...

             The fall seems eternal              but the winter . . .              Air cackles off-key. [the day           Incessant tympanic will be 8 hrs.,              orchestral 43 min. long]                movements frozen               somewhere backwards               in time. Static-               bristling (cochlear               hoarfrost). (fro...

The New York Review of Books |The Secrets of the Bomb By Jeremy Bernstein & related only through random surfing Shomei Tomatsu: Skin of the Nation - See: Images :: note :: ... need to explore ... as a young student my father studied at Berkeley during the Manhatten Project ... though he had received a scholarship to study at one of the most prestidious universities working in his field of plasma physics he left months later ... he left knowing the 'pure science' research he was a part of was being used for American military purposes ... this was the man who once commanded me never to compromise myself ...

"Here we are in the presence not of religion, but of something at once primordial and all too contemporary. On a notecard from the 1950s, Rothko had written, in his usual clotted style that yet makes his meaning entirely clear:" "'When I say that my paintings are Western, what I mean is that they seek the concretization of no state that is without the limits of western reason, no esoteric, extra-sensory or divine attributes to be achieved by prayer & terror. Those who can claim that these [limits] are exceeded are exhibiting self-imposed limitations as to the tensile limits of the imagination within those limits. In other words, that there is no yearning in these paintings for Paradise, or divination. On the contrary they are deeply involved in the possibility of ordinary humanity.'" ( arts.telegraph | A room full of violence, and the silence of death ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... after spending most of my practice & thought bonding the sacred to...

- See: Images :: note :: ... tulips in the front yard of my mother's house in full splendor ... Ottawa Tulip Festival ... my mother grew up in Ottawa and when I planted these bulbs, sometimes with my son, these past few years it has been that connection I've explored ... know she loves tulips but have never asked why & even though she loves her home here know she loves Ottawa too ... there are no why's in beauty ... no why in most of living ... just do the work ... plant the bulbs in autumn ... spring always comes ...

he dreamed ... softly walking down an eerily empty corridor of a dazzlingly new elementary school ... he opened a classroom door at the very end of the hallway to find himself at the back of a crowded grade three class ... the young faces were full of joy as they finger painted ... his co-operating teacher of over twenty years ago smiled inviting him to the blackboard ... excited to see her again he stopped and remembered she had recently recovered from a serious battle with cancer ... the room darkened and lowered to another realm ... the young students were suddenly comatose ... he was in a laboratory desperately piling bodies into a bathtub ... an invisible flesh eating gas was attacking the children ... workers in white lab coats were slashing through canvas walls ... he was wearing a gas mask ... a nerve gas he thought intended to annihilate all vital material ... this is senseless ... panic stricken he awoke ... - See: Dreams

"The decision regarding the distribution of funding was not made by curators, juries or committees, but by the submitters themselves." ( context weblog | net community hacks cultural funding system ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... a self-managed cultural funding ... the breaking down of heiarchy ... yes ... a source of joy ... beautifully & creatively nihilistic ... allow the free spirit to be heroic ... courage, cheerful and energetic ... be open, appreciative and equally observant of everything ... active, generous and positive ... happily re-invent continuously ...

:: note :: ... attended an authors reading tonight at the Broadway Theater ... Rohinton Mistery reading from Such a Long Journey ... a full, rich voice with a soft vibratory drone and a gentle melodious rise and fall lent both humour and spirit to the written word ... concise and erudite introductions to the passages allowed subtle insight into the workings of this story-teller ... a calm centered presence answered audience questions on his family and Parsi (Zorastrrian ) heritage with humility letting slip, a quiet touch of irony under his breath, i am "a man of few words ... who embraces a story" ... a writer of carefully crafted prose reads with a confident texture and layering in a carefully studied tone musically placing the spoken word comfortably into the space of imagination ... - See: Artists

"... funny, inquisitive, withdrawn, clever, aggressive, comatose, sensitive, imaginative, confident, challenging, open, inspiring, critical, hopeless... " ( purse lip square jaw | Tired and happy ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... all of that is so difficult when out of sync ... students impress me working with director of Shakespeare on the Saskatchewan ... it is they who make the impossible possible ... not great teachers inspire the world ... great students inspire ... so mired in my own mediocrity plod on ... Monet's Water Lilies bloom again ...

University of Alberta sends artsy students some cash ALEXANDRA GILL From Monday's Globe and Mail Vancouver - After years of watching the arts lag behind engineering, medicine and science, the University of Alberta has established its own $1.5 - million annual fund to support students, faculty and researchers in the humanities, social sciences and fine arts. The Killam Research Fund was set up with $500,000 from the university and $1 - million from the Killam Trusts, which give out scholarships and research grants across Canada. University president Indira Samarasekera said it would help address "repeated and systematic" underfunding of the arts by the provincial government. The Alberta government has set up a $300-million endowment fund for health researchers and is building a $1-billion fund for science and engineering. There is no such provincial fund for social sciences and humanities, which represent the majority of students and faculty in Canada. (via globeandmail....

- See: Image :: note :: ... warmth is here ... the golden dandelion tops in the front yard ... my grandfather made wonderful dandelion wine but have always feared the chemical sprays & possible pollution of downtown to harvest each years incredible crop ... sometimes do pick the greens to make a scrumptious salad figuring to survive the small amount of pollutants from a few plants each year ...

" . . . Awareness inspires action; worry is pointless and paralyzing." ( Oblivio | Awareness ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... a phrase to live by which i find easier to speak/think than act on ... also this is the first blink towards Oblivio who makes me laugh more than most ...

feather to fire fire to blood blood to bone bone to marrow marrow to ashes ashes to snow "The title Ashes and Snow suggests beauty and renewal, while also referring to the literary component of the exhibition - a fictional account of a man who, over the course of a yearlong journey, composes 365 letters to his wife. The source of the title is revealed in the 365th letter." ( ashes and snow ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... an absolutely beautiful experience from an incredible artist ...

(via How to Save the World | Lack of Presence ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... love the terminology ... from the incredible blogger Dave Pollard and one of the fewer & fewer remaining Radio users ...

:: note :: ... during the break wandered the school & took shots of displayed school art ... impressive work ... more ... also visited COOLart 2006 where student's work was on display ... - See: Images

"Do you know why birds sing at dawn and at sunset? Because of the changing light. Their songs are a spontaneous response to the beauty of the world. That is truly music." ( Gita Mehta. A River Sutra . p203 ) - See: Quotes :: note :: ... need to listen more ...

"... we asked readers to nominate their grassroots eco-heroes, we received hundreds of names. It's a testament to the number of people, often uncelebrated, who continue to fight for our planet." ( AlterNet | Celebrating Our Eco-Heroes ) - See: Politics :: note :: ... what do I do? ... if you do link read the comments ... a wonderful collection of complex ideas ...

"What I am suggesting, then, is for networks to intervene into the market of higher education. The university is quite a vulnerable institution actually. It is quite uncertain, and indeed could be characterised as a place of precarity for many. As many have experienced, the labour force of universities is predominantly composed of casual workers whose seasonal pattern of employment resembles that of the strawberry picker. Unions typically fail to represent the interests of casual workers, since their interest is to protect the security of those with tenured positions. ... But eventually free labour exhausts itself. " ( Inter Activist INFO Exchange |'Organised Networks: Transdisciplinarity and New Institutional Forms' |Ned Rossiter ) - See: Politics :: note :: ... teaching load slashed this term ... simple lack of collaborative interest ... a continued pattern of hierarchical dimension institutions in which i knowingly participate in a shameful 'self-managed expl...

longSunday bells toll grey Eastersmoke soaking up dust a hermetic watchful & mourning eye guides the souls of men & women passing through frail, faint faith - See: Poetry

- See: Image :: note :: ... playing with appleworks draw tool ...

"But then came the real surprise: When they introduced disorder - forces were applied at random to each oscillator - the system became ordered and synchronized." ( context weblog sampling new cultural context | disorder-induced synchronization ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... wonderful when physics meets intuition ... find arts methodology is so far behind theoritical physics ...

y.nishimura gallery (via manoverboard ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... future project takes vision ...

"Proprioception means, literally, our sense of self. Modern neuroscientists use the word to refer to the sensory information coming from sensors in the body - telling us where it is and what it is doing." ( BBC | The Dancers Body ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... sometimes described as the sixth sense ... balance & beyond ... for years have (very unscientifically) called intuition the sixth sense until this year let it slip to the seventh sense ... when questioned made up some answer ... keep living the questions and you'll never find answers ...

... dear students ... translate your actions, your learning into language ... entwine the culture & history of your lived experience with the fabric of your imagination intersecting contexts & circumstances with realizations ... taste the bitter paradoxes ... inhabit the many somethings not simply there but sought for with all your range & resources ... speculate with attentiveness and precision ... that is what i call reflection ... many thanks for your love and compassion ... - See: Terms :: note :: ... open hearted letter to all writing exams at this time ...

The New York Review of Books |The Secrets of the Bomb By Jeremy Bernstein & related only through random surfing Shomei Tomatsu: Skin of the Nation - See: Images :: note :: ... need to explore ... as a young student my father studied at Berkeley during the Manhatten Project ... though he had received a scholarship to study at one of the most prestidious universities working in his field of plasma physics he left months later ... he left knowing the 'pure science' research he was a part of was being used for American military purposes ... this was the man who once commanded me never to compromise myself ...

" Allan Kaprow , the artist who combined painting, sculpture and theater in flamboyant events that he staged in unexpected locations and referred to as "happenings," has died. He was 79." ( latimes.com | Allan Kaprow, 79; Artist's 'Happenings' Broke New Ground in Expression ) - See: Memorium :: note :: ... as a student of the '70's Kaprow inspired my experimentation ... a pioneer forges paths ... i followed creating happenings in the streets, by the river, in the fields, in the now demolished hanger building ... to this day i exercise an event called soulWork which can be traced by following the path back to Kaprow ... thank you for your artistry & vision ... peace be with you in the " happening " beyond ...

"Here we are in the presence not of religion, but of something at once primordial and all too contemporary. On a notecard from the 1950s, Rothko had written, in his usual clotted style that yet makes his meaning entirely clear:" "'When I say that my paintings are Western, what I mean is that they seek the concretization of no state that is without the limits of western reason, no esoteric, extra-sensory or divine attributes to be achieved by prayer & terror. Those who can claim that these [limits] are exceeded are exhibiting self-imposed limitations as to the tensile limits of the imagination within those limits. In other words, that there is no yearning in these paintings for Paradise, or divination. On the contrary they are deeply involved in the possibility of ordinary humanity.'" ( arts.telegraph | A room full of violence, and the silence of death ) - See: Artists :: note :: ... after spending most of my practice & thought bonding the sacred to...

"Therefore, it may be that how a person is thinking before problem solving begins is just as important as the kind of thinking involved in reaching the solution, and perhaps even determines whether the solution will be derived with a sudden insight." ( context weblog | aha! creative thinking style ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... sudden insights take a lifetime of preparation ...

- See: Images :: note :: ... tulips in the front yard of my mother's house in full splendor ... Ottawa Tulip Festival ... my mother grew up in Ottawa and when I planted these bulbs, sometimes with my son, these past few years it has been that connection I've explored ... know she loves tulips but have never asked why & even though she loves her home here know she loves Ottawa too ... there are no why's in beauty ... no why in most of living ... just do the work ... plant the bulbs in autumn ... spring always comes ...

he dreamed ... softly walking down an eerily empty corridor of a dazzlingly new elementary school ... he opened a classroom door at the very end of the hallway to find himself at the back of a crowded grade three class ... the young faces were full of joy as they finger painted ... his co-operating teacher of over twenty years ago smiled inviting him to the blackboard ... excited to see her again he stopped and remembered she had recently recovered from a serious battle with cancer ... the room darkened and lowered to another realm ... the young students were suddenly comatose ... he was in a laboratory desperately piling bodies into a bathtub ... an invisible flesh eating gas was attacking the children ... workers in white lab coats were slashing through canvas walls ... he was wearing a gas mask ... a nerve gas he thought intended to annihilate all vital material ... this is senseless ... panic stricken he awoke ... - See: Dreams

"The decision regarding the distribution of funding was not made by curators, juries or committees, but by the submitters themselves." ( context weblog | net community hacks cultural funding system ) - See: Terms :: note :: ... a self-managed cultural funding ... the breaking down of heiarchy ... yes ... a source of joy ... beautifully & creatively nihilistic ... allow the free spirit to be heroic ... courage, cheerful and energetic ... be open, appreciative and equally observant of everything ... active, generous and positive ... happily re-invent continuously ...

- See: Tags :: note :: ... these stickers appeared last weekend on the wall of the department ... at least seven different quotes ... all attributed to The Roots of Desire: The Myth, Meaning and Sexual Power of Red Hair by Marion Roach ... on Monday vanished ... watch a brief interview with the author ... btw my sister was a redhead & proud of it ...

"The theatre moves, illuminates, disquiets, disturbs, lifts the spirit, reveals, provokes and violates conventions. It is a conversation shared with society. Theatre is the first art to confront emptiness, shadows and silence to make words, movement, lights and life surge forth." ( World Theatre Day International Message 2006 Víctor Hugo Rascón-Banda Playwright) - See: Theater :: note :: ... each year the rhetoric seems more & more forced ...

- See: Image :: note :: ... at the Kenderdine Gallery (U of S) ... filling&floating all things blown ... a slow release emptying&bursting into nothingness ... rise&fall from form into formless invisibility ... shapeless shapes ... wonderful paradox ...

Saskatchewan Uncommon Views Photographer John Conway - See: Artists :: note :: ... seeing place with freshness and clarity ...

"Stage director whose passion launched a worldwide movement for educational theatre in schools" ... (Guardian Unlimited. Brian Way ) - See: Memorium :: note :: ... the grandfather of drama as education ... had the pleasure of working with Brian ever so briefly during his stay in Regina, SK Canada ... a wise elder, at the time, youthful in presence & energy ... an infectious passion ... share his writings with my students of today ... thank you for your gifts & peace be with you ...

"For Love makes his assaults so suddenly Most vital spirits desert and, as they do Only one spirit remains alive in me, One spirit left because it speaks of you." (Dante Alighieri. New Life . translation J.G. Nichols) - See: Quotes :: note :: ... oh the divine comedy ...

My EFL students are repeat victims of institutional violence. When given the opportunity to take control of their learning, they get nervous, confused, and irritable; and like sailors on a sinking ship, they look desperately for rescue . . . (APCAMPBELL | Violence in the Classroom ) - See: Education :: note :: ... loaded words ... this post has been bookmarked for months waiting for release ... deleting a bookmark might free a certain emotional frustration ... doubt it though ... thoughtful & deliberate consideration may follow emotional pollution ... communication may follow provocation ... hope follows cynicism ... to truly liberate a bookmark, an emotion, a concept, a ... vigil ... attention ...