. . . believe in the beginning and end . . . the middle is so difficult. . . . too many twists and turns which inevitably result in anguish. . . gentleness does not equal a quiet freedom or choice. Silence is unbearable. Selfishness requests more and more.
If is the experiment.
Experience inspires but does not overcome.
"In everyday life 'if' is an evasion, in the theatre 'if' is the truth. In everyday life 'if' is a fiction, in the theatre 'if' is an experiment." (Peter Brook -- The Empty Space)
Exploring the empty space & the 'if'.